Lately Ive been missing the freedom I associated with the past. The fun and excititng things that were always at my door step when I was with a past love. I remember the excitment and fascination of my first love. I miss those days but not the person.
My marriage has not been an easy ride like I foolishly believed it would be. Its been primarily a struggle learning to live with this new person. Its a struggle to think of us instead of you and me. Weve been in counsiling for 6 months now just to help us adapt and finally I think were reaching a turning point. I finaly feel like I am opening back up to my husband and slowly falling in love with him once more. We are learning how to communicate; which is a challenge since he thinks with logic and i think with emotion. We are complete opposites which is what caused out initial attraction and now were learning how to adjust so we dont push each other away with our differences. "Embrace the difference" is what our counciler says.
Were learning to focus on what the other is good at and how it can benifit the team called us. Im learning to breath deeper and appretiate the little moments where we can enjoy a conversation. Im finally finding inner peace with our journey together.
Im not saying its going to be an easy ride from here on out but maybe that weve finally found a way to communicate better so we can do what is best for us. We finally finding how to strengthen us instead of tearing us apart with our own selfish desires. I thank God for his mercy and pray for his continual guidance and wisdom.